It's a pretty late hour of the night, & as I'm packing all of Aubry's tiny clothes for our long family trip, I am thinking of how my life has changed since having her. I used to be abe to stay up all night, get a few hours of sleep, and go work an 8 hour shift the next day, then do it all over again. What happens when I stay up past 11 now? I wake up in the worst mood you could imagine, I look like a zombie all day, and I'm a complete crab ass. Why? Well, because Miss Aubry wakes up at 6:30 am. Sometimes even later. Like 7:30. Now, that's really not all that early, and it gives me a pretty good amount of sleep. But it's like since I had a child my body thinks it's 40! I am no where near 40, I am only 23. Which is still very young. But how the heck did I age so fast?! Maybe it was the 9 months of hell my body went through whiile "growing" my little princess. Or maybe it was the child birth. Because we all know that does a number on you! Or maybe it's that my entire life changed, and I no longer get to sleep when I want, or shower when I want, or even pee ALONE for that matter. And I spend my days now chasing a toddler around my house, trying to get her to not shove things up her nose, or in he ears. Or for the love of god, let her get ahold of a pen! Oh, and let's not forget the days when she wants to do nothing but throw tantrums...the ENTIRE day! Those are always fun. I age at least 3 years on those days. Or the days when she is JUST like her father, and thinks she is a dare devil, and nearly gives me a heart attack climbing on things and jumping off! I am surprised I haven't had to make an ER trip with that child...YET!! There are seriously some dayswhen she drives me completely bonkers!
And while she does all of those things that make me crazy, and feel like I am losing my marbles...she also does the most amazing things, that make life worth living. Most mornings, when I go in her room to get her out & ready for the day, I open the door and she gets this HUGE smile on her face and yells "MAMA!!!", then she runs to me and gives me the biggest hug her little body can give, followed by an "I love you!". That's a pretty awesome way to start your day, no matter what time it is, or how much sleep you got! There are many times in the day when I am just watching her, and I know she is just absolutely amazing. Every thing to her is so wonderful and exciting. And she is such a GIRL! Which I of course love!! She will walk around in a tutu all day long, tellng me how pretty she is. And on the days that I actually get to do my hair & make up, she also makes sure to tell me how pretty I am. Which I also love. She really is the most amazing child. She is smart, and sweet, and cuddly. And she melts my heart. Today I was trying to clean the kitchen & she came and told me she wanted to watch Tink. So I of course came in the living room and put it on for her, and she was so thankful. "Thank you mom! Thank you!" Then she layed on the couch and patted right next to her for me to lay with her and cuddle. How am I supposed to clean my kitchen when the cutest kid in the world wants me to cuddle? Needless to say, the kitchen got put off. :) She amazes me with the new things she learns every day, and how much she changes and grows. So yes, my life has changed. I used to spend my days doing what I wanted to do, when I wanted to do it, and I didn't have a care in the world. I now spend my days being a stay at home mom, and taking care of my baby girl and my amazing husband. Who I am also SO thankful for. He is my best friend, and he is there for me no matter what. He is my shoulder to cry on when I need it, my safe place to land when I feel like I am falling, and also the only person in the world who can make me laugh when I've had the worst day. I am so thankful to have him in my life, and I love him more than anything.
Parenting isn't always easy. In fact, most days it's pretty dang hard, and I know it will only get harder. But even on those days when Aubry is doing nothing but throwing fits, in the middle of the grocery store because I got her the wrong color of bug juice, or not listening to anything I ask her to do or not do, or acting like she is a dare devil...even on the days that I want to rip my hair out, or crawl under a rock for a few hours...I wouldn't change a single thing. Because when she looks up at me with those big brown eyes, and tells me she loves me, it makes every little hard part of being a parent go away. I absolutely love my life, and I feel so blessed to have Aubry and Richard in it. <3
No comments:
Post a Comment