Update

I told everyone I would give them an update when I got my results back, & this is the easier way to do it rather than text & call everyone. Plu sit gives me a chance to write/type a little.
  Aubry & I were off to Safford again today. She thinks it was just so she could go spend time with grandma, but really it was because I had my follow up appointment. I didn't expect my biopsy results to be back quite yet, since they took almost 2 weeks for my pap results, and the holidays just passed. But, they were in! They came back negitive, which is awesome! I was all worried for nothing at all. What can I say? I'm a little crazy. I go back in 6 months to make sure everything still looks good.
 As for my pains, he did another ultrasound, & this time he could see a functional cyst on my right ovary. Which is what I thought I had from the begining. It is something that will go away on it's own, and really isn't that big of a deal. He gave me some IBU 800 for the pain, and sent me on my way. I wish he would have been able to see the cyst on the first ultrasound he did, so that I would have known back then what was happening with my body. But I really can not complain. Things turned out great today, and I was very happy leaving that office! I had a total attitude change from when I walked it. Usually it's the opposite. So it was nice. I am just relieved & happy to finally know what is causing all this pain I've been having. Hopefully the cyst goes away soon, and I can go back to feeling fine, and doing what I want! I feel like I was stressing out about nothing. But it is always scary when something is going on with your body that you can not explain. I had no idea what was going on, now that I do, I feel better. The pain is obviously still there, but now at least I know what it is from. I was scared about the biopsy because I have seen my best friend go through some pretty scary stuff, and while I would take all of her pain & problems & have them for my own if I could, it was scary to know what some of the bad results could come back as. Like I said in my last post, she is amazing! I love her!
 Richard seems relieved to know what is going on now, too. He is also amazing. I am just blessed with awesome people in my life! 

I know I am blessed

So in my last post I was talking about the pains I have been having. I went to the doctor for an ultrasound & he said everything looked great, my IUD had not moved at all since he put it in 2 years ago, and everything else looked completely normal. What he said was "Well the good news is I don't see anything wrong, but the bad news is I don't see anything wrong" pretty much because the pain has to be coming from some where, right? During my exam my bladder was a littler tender, so he gave me an antibiotic in case I was getting a bladder infection.
 Well then we headed up to Phoenix to my amazing brother's house. I can't tell you how much I love him & his little family. His wife is awesome, and his boys amaze me. I LOVE those kids!!! They are growing up way, way too fast, which only makes me realize Aubry will be that age before I know it. We took Richard's jeep up to trade with a guy, well that fell through, so then we had another guy who seemed SO interested & like he really, really wanted it, he said he just didn't get to the bank it time that day so he would call first thing in the morning. Well needless to say, he never called. Richard didn't want to drive that thing all the way home, it's completely open, no doors, no top..nothing. And we might live in Arizona, but it is flippin cold riding around in that thing in the winter! So, Todd & Jess got in touch with a friend & he let us keep it at his house. Of course, that didn't last too long before Richard found someone to trade with. So now we have ANOTHER 79 Ford pick up sitting outside our house. Whatever makes him happy. Plus, he looks pretty sexy driving those old trucks around. ;) While we were still at Todd's our neighbor called to tell us our small chihuahua got in our back yard with our dogo argentino & our mastiff. Well, the mastiff attacked him. Splinter(the chihuahua) is about the size of Jack's head, as you probably guessed, he's the mastiff. He tore him up pretty good, and thank God for good neighbors, because if ours hadn't jumped the fence & stopped it, Jack would have killed him. He was in pretty rough shape. He is looking a whole lot better today, but he has a really big gash on his side, and lots of puncture wounds from Jack's teeth. So of course we were bummed out that we couldn't be here to be with him. But soo thankful for our neighbor. He took him in for us, & even drove him to the vet the next morning. Where a friend of ours works, and we are also extremely thankful for that, because she was able to help us out with the bill & letting me know how he was doing the entire time. And now we have to get rid of Jack. He has never been agressive at all, so it's hard for me to even picture him doing that, but we can't have him around Aubry if he is going to act that way. The good news about that whole trip, besides the fact that we got to spend time with some of our favorite people, is that we took Aubry for a check up on her hips, and everything looks GREAT!!! We don't have to take her back for another six months! We couldn't be more happy!!! After her appointment we took her to Bass Pro to meet Santa for the first time. She did pretty good. She was pretty nervous when Richard went to hand her to him, but then he pulled out a little candy cane & she went right to him! Haha! The Santa there looked the part perfectly, but he didn't play it very well. He didn't talk or anything, just sat there smiling. It was rather awkward. Aubry liked it, and we got a pretty good picture to show her in the future, so that's all that matters. Plus she loves Bass Pro, so she had a blast for the rest of the time we were in there.

While we were at Todd's I also got a call from my doctor about my pap results.Well, I missed the call actually. I've been really worried since I've been having these pains. And I knew as soon as I saw I had a missed call from them that they were going to say it was abnormal. So I waited until after their lunch break was over & called back.The results came back abnormal, and the doctor wanted me to go in for a colposcopy. I had never had one of those done before, so I asked the girl on the phone about it, and she did really well at explaining it. Of course I was scared for them to tell me something was abnormal, so I went to tell Richard. Let me tell you, I have always known that I married the perfect person for me. He is my best friend, and he is always there for me, and I have no clue what I would do without him. All I had to do was tell him what they said & without another word he took me in his arms & just let me cry. I know, I probably seem like a drama queen at this point, but I was scared, so be it. So yesterday was the day for the colposcopy. I drove down to Safford, took Aubry to spend some time with her awesome aunties Katie & Kyla, and off I went. It was pretty awkward. And it only hurt a little when he took the samples for biopsies. However, I am STILL having these stupid pains, they are actually just getting worse. So now I have to go back in a week for yet another ultrasound. Blah! When I text Richard to let him know I was all done with the appointment (he was at work or he would have been there with me) he called me right away to ask me how I was feeling & what the doctor said etc. He is amazing. I seriously do not know what I would do without him. After having a some what emotionally draining day, it was wonderful to go pick up my beautiful little girl & have her come running to me yelling "mama! mama! mama!" & giving me the biggest hug ever!! Followed with an "I luuuuuuuhhhhh you!!!!" <3

Through this whole thing of me having pains, and feeling scared, my best friend Stephanie has been there for me to talk to about things and vent to, and also explain things because she has been through it all before. She is also amazing. Not only is she always there for me no matter what, and always has been, she is going through some pretty major stuff herself, and she is so strong & just....well, awesome!! She is an absolutely amazing person & I am so thankful to have her in my life. Of course my family has been there for me to talk to as well, and I couldn't ask for more awesome people in my life. I just feel extremely blessed to have these people in my life. Each and every one of them. Especially Richard and Aubry. They are my everything, and I absolutely could not imagine life without them. Richard has been there for me for so many different things, I have always known I could turn to him, even before we were dating. He has such a huge heart, and while I always knew it belonged to me, and so did he, it took us a while to get there. But it was so worth it. I am so blessed to get to spend the rest of my life with this amazing man who understands me in a way that no one else does. And we created this amazing little person who has changed our lives forever, and brought us closer in so many ways. I may have had a few rough days, and I know I will have more to come, but I am so thankful I have these amazing people to go through life with.

Sometimes being a girl stinks!

For about the past week I have been having these pretty bad pains in my lower right abdomen. I've kind of had them on & off since I got an IUD after having Aubry, but nothing like this. I went for a little check up, you know, the ones all of us girls LOVE...NOT! It's always super awkward & extremely uncomfortable if you ask me. Anyway, that's when it started really hurting. I usually have some cramping after those kind of things, so I didn't think much of it..until it wouldn't go away. So of course, me being the smart person that I am(cough cough), decided to google it. I should never, ever, EVER do that. Because I some how always manage to find the worst answers out there. Anyway, after talking to my awesome best friend, Stephanie, I came to the conclusion that I have an ovarian cyst. They're pretty common with an IUD from what I understand, and the symptoms I have seem about right. All of this isn't really a big deal, the part I'm mad about is that I finally, after weeks of not having any motivation what so ever to work out, have that motivation I've been wanting...but every time I try to do it...I feel like some thing is stabbing me in the ovary! It's so annoying! Now, I know people have way bigger problems than this, my best friend, for instance. But I needed to vent, and that's what I'm doing. While Richard listens to me & talks to me about it, I am sure he is tired of hearing about it by now, so I decided to share with whoever will read this. Or maybe no one will read it, and I will just feel better for getting it off my chest. I made an appointment to go see my doctor on Friday, bright & early. So then I will know what is wrong for sure, and get some advice on what to do!