Follow Up

I had my follow up appointment with Dr. H on Wednesday. They hadn't called with my results from my LEEP & it has been 2 weeks & 1 day, so I was a little stressed. Okay, a little stressed is an understatement. All morning on Wednesday I felt like I was going to throw up. I was so nervous. Mostly because I hadn't gotten my results, and because it seems like every time I go in there lately, or for the last few months, I get nothing but bad news. Thank goodness Richard was with me, or I would have been going even more crazy. Of course as we are waiting in the room they have the little display thing on the counter opened up to the cervical cancer one. I swear I was having a panic attack. Haha! So Dr. H comes in & says that everything looked good. So I asked what that means. He said the cells from the LEEP were consistent with the cell from the biopsy, which is good because it means they aren't any worse than they thought, and also they didn't get any worse in the time it took from getting to biopsy to doing the LEEP. He also said the margins were clear, which was the part  I was stressing about most, and that is REALLY good, because it means the bad cells don't go any deeper than what the burned off. So, I was stressing the heck out for NOTHING. Not that this whole thing isn't to be taken seriously. There is always a chance the cells could come back, but I am not even thinking of that right now. I am just thinking THANK GOD everything is looking good now. I think Richard & I were skipping back to the car like a couple of fruit loops. The first person I text when we left was my best friend. I know, I should have called my family first, but I knew she would 100% know how I feel. She is in vacation in Cali, and she still called me when she got the text. I LOVE her!! Then we went to get Aubry from Lee Ann(Richard's mom) and gave her the good news, then went to see my mom & did the same.  Then I texted everyone else to let them know. I have a very supportive family, and the greatest friends. I am happy I have them to go through this with. 


Our dog, Splinter, passed away I guess about 10 days ago. He had just stopped eating and gotten really lethargic. He was about 14 years old, so I guess it was about his time. It was really sad, because Richard was in the middle of his night shifts & we didn't have the money to take him down to the vet to be put to sleep. We tried to make him as comfortable as we could. The last day he didn't even pick his head up at all when I would go out to check on him, so then I decided to let Aubry go out and give him some love, and only then did he pop his head up & try to move around a bit. It was sad, but I am glad we got to have him with us for a couple of years.


Aubry 2 ant bites the other night & her whole foot & ankle are swollen. It's so sad! I'm thinking the big fire ants must have got her, because she's gotten bit by the small ants before & didn't have a reaction like this. We've been giving her benadryl & putting cream on the bites. And trying to keep ice on her foot, but getting a 2 year old to sit around for longer than 5 minutes is a joke! Hopefully the swelling goes down soon. I start freaking out about stuff like that because Richard is allergic to everything, and I am allergic to nothing, so I don't ever know what to expect. 

LEEP

This week hasn't exactly been wonderful. Actually, it's been pretty awful. My grandpa passed away on Sunday..and that was really hard. We all knew it was coming, but that doesn't make it easier. I've experienced loss in both ways, expecting it & not expecting it, and either way it is really hard. I guess I just thought he would live forever. But he had a great life, and I am very happy that he got to meet Aubry & Richard, and we got to see him not too long ago. He will be missed by many. The hardest thing for me is that we had just gotten back from Montana when things took a turn for the worst, so we couldn't afford to go out there to see him, or for the funeral. The funeral is today and I really wish we could be there. My mom got to go out there and say he goodbyes and be there with her mom and family, so that is good. I am very happy she got to do that.
 

 Monday we took Aubry to Phoenix for her check up for her hips. THAT is the only good thing about this week so far! Everything looked wonderful, and her hips are actually getting BETTER as she grows! With no brace or anything! So that is absolutely wonderful! With her growing so much right now we always worry that they wont grow the right way, but they are, and we couldn't be more happy! We go back in another 6 months for another x-ray. He said we will probably do every 6 months until she is about 5 or 6 years old, and then stretch it out to a year between visits. Which is fine by me, I know he knows what he is doing, and obviously things are going well, so I have no complaints about that! :)

 Yesterday was a big day for me. I had my LEEP. Everyone else I know that has had it done had it done at their doctor's office. I guess going the the doctor from my small town made things a little different. But I really like Dr H. I have been going to him for years. Well, since I was pregnant with our little princess. So that's why I decided to not go out of town to have the LEEP done. We had to be at the hospital at 11:30 am, so we dropped Aubry off with her awesome auntie Kyla & headed over there. I was cranky because I wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything after midnight the night before since I would be put to sleep. We got all checked in, and I got to put on that awesome hospital gown & that very stylish blue cap. Woo woo! HA! Then they asked me all the crazy scary questions that you don't really want to be asked right before you go into surgery for the first time in your life. Then it was a waiting game. Thank goodness I had my amazing husband there with me to keep me laughing! Have I mentioned that he is absolutely wonderful? Because he really is! After about 2 hours of waiting, it was time to go in. They came and put something in my IV & said it would calm me down & to give Richard a "see ya later kiss". So I did. I was hoping I would be out of it when they took me away from him so I wouldn't have a panic attack, but I wasn't. I guess the medicine did make my heart stop racing, but I was still really nervous. Then we get into the room & they have me move from one bed to another, and start hooking me up to all this stuff, and put an oxygen mask on me. Then one lady came over & took that & asked if I had a good dream picked out, I said I guess, then she put another mask on me & told me to take 5 deep breaths. I think I remember taking 2. Maybe 3. Next thing I knew I was waking up and in  a good amount of pain. I told them it burned (they did just burn part of my cervix, after all), and they told me "you don't feel anything". And that made me mad, so I asked them to call my husband. I was still kind of in & out at this point. But I do know they said they would call him, and they didn't until I was wide awake and asking even more impatiently. All I wanted was to hold his hand. He was there in about 2 minutes after they called. I didn't expect the pain to be so bad, but it was awful. Maybe I am just a total sissy, but it HURT! They gave me a pain pill, and sent us on our way not too long after. Then we went to get our princess, but I am not allowed to pick her up, because she weighs over 20 pounds, and that is a little hard for me. She wants me to pick her up a lot, and I just can't. :( After we got Aubry, I wanted KFC really bad, so we went there, where my AWESOME best friend met up with us! I was so happy to see her! It made the day suck a little less. :) We also went & saw my dad while we waited for my prescriptions to get filled. Aubry had a blast playing in his back yard, and it's always nice to spend a little time with him. So I guess the day ended decently well. We came home, and Richard watched my girly shows with me, and let me lay on him. I seriously do not know what I would do without that man. He is the best. He is currently grocery shopping for me! :) 

 So, yes, this week has pretty much sucked. But I am blessed with wonderful people in my life who support me & love me so much! And I am so thankful for that. I know I say that often, but it's because it is true. I had a lot of people checking on me yesterday, and of course, I had my awesome hubby by the side the entire time. Now we wait for the results from the LEEP, and pray everything comes back clear so we can move on!