LEEP

This week hasn't exactly been wonderful. Actually, it's been pretty awful. My grandpa passed away on Sunday..and that was really hard. We all knew it was coming, but that doesn't make it easier. I've experienced loss in both ways, expecting it & not expecting it, and either way it is really hard. I guess I just thought he would live forever. But he had a great life, and I am very happy that he got to meet Aubry & Richard, and we got to see him not too long ago. He will be missed by many. The hardest thing for me is that we had just gotten back from Montana when things took a turn for the worst, so we couldn't afford to go out there to see him, or for the funeral. The funeral is today and I really wish we could be there. My mom got to go out there and say he goodbyes and be there with her mom and family, so that is good. I am very happy she got to do that.
 

 Monday we took Aubry to Phoenix for her check up for her hips. THAT is the only good thing about this week so far! Everything looked wonderful, and her hips are actually getting BETTER as she grows! With no brace or anything! So that is absolutely wonderful! With her growing so much right now we always worry that they wont grow the right way, but they are, and we couldn't be more happy! We go back in another 6 months for another x-ray. He said we will probably do every 6 months until she is about 5 or 6 years old, and then stretch it out to a year between visits. Which is fine by me, I know he knows what he is doing, and obviously things are going well, so I have no complaints about that! :)

 Yesterday was a big day for me. I had my LEEP. Everyone else I know that has had it done had it done at their doctor's office. I guess going the the doctor from my small town made things a little different. But I really like Dr H. I have been going to him for years. Well, since I was pregnant with our little princess. So that's why I decided to not go out of town to have the LEEP done. We had to be at the hospital at 11:30 am, so we dropped Aubry off with her awesome auntie Kyla & headed over there. I was cranky because I wasn't allowed to eat or drink anything after midnight the night before since I would be put to sleep. We got all checked in, and I got to put on that awesome hospital gown & that very stylish blue cap. Woo woo! HA! Then they asked me all the crazy scary questions that you don't really want to be asked right before you go into surgery for the first time in your life. Then it was a waiting game. Thank goodness I had my amazing husband there with me to keep me laughing! Have I mentioned that he is absolutely wonderful? Because he really is! After about 2 hours of waiting, it was time to go in. They came and put something in my IV & said it would calm me down & to give Richard a "see ya later kiss". So I did. I was hoping I would be out of it when they took me away from him so I wouldn't have a panic attack, but I wasn't. I guess the medicine did make my heart stop racing, but I was still really nervous. Then we get into the room & they have me move from one bed to another, and start hooking me up to all this stuff, and put an oxygen mask on me. Then one lady came over & took that & asked if I had a good dream picked out, I said I guess, then she put another mask on me & told me to take 5 deep breaths. I think I remember taking 2. Maybe 3. Next thing I knew I was waking up and in  a good amount of pain. I told them it burned (they did just burn part of my cervix, after all), and they told me "you don't feel anything". And that made me mad, so I asked them to call my husband. I was still kind of in & out at this point. But I do know they said they would call him, and they didn't until I was wide awake and asking even more impatiently. All I wanted was to hold his hand. He was there in about 2 minutes after they called. I didn't expect the pain to be so bad, but it was awful. Maybe I am just a total sissy, but it HURT! They gave me a pain pill, and sent us on our way not too long after. Then we went to get our princess, but I am not allowed to pick her up, because she weighs over 20 pounds, and that is a little hard for me. She wants me to pick her up a lot, and I just can't. :( After we got Aubry, I wanted KFC really bad, so we went there, where my AWESOME best friend met up with us! I was so happy to see her! It made the day suck a little less. :) We also went & saw my dad while we waited for my prescriptions to get filled. Aubry had a blast playing in his back yard, and it's always nice to spend a little time with him. So I guess the day ended decently well. We came home, and Richard watched my girly shows with me, and let me lay on him. I seriously do not know what I would do without that man. He is the best. He is currently grocery shopping for me! :) 

 So, yes, this week has pretty much sucked. But I am blessed with wonderful people in my life who support me & love me so much! And I am so thankful for that. I know I say that often, but it's because it is true. I had a lot of people checking on me yesterday, and of course, I had my awesome hubby by the side the entire time. Now we wait for the results from the LEEP, and pray everything comes back clear so we can move on!